rough week

This week was spent in bed so sick with the flu I could only get up to go to the bathroom.....and I had so many hard coughing spells they caused me to pee my pants (many times)..it was just awful..God I was sick!  Anyway Donnie stepped up to the plate and drove me down to Oromocto where the wait for ER services wouldn't take as long as it does at the DECH..there were times when Paul and I waited more than 8 hours to be seen and gave up....so I was seen right away and the doctor prescribed me on two puffers..one to take twice a day and the other one to take whenever I start coughing...I'm hardly coughing at all now and I just couldn't thank Donnie enough for going above the line of friendship and doing that for me.....I was soooo sick I thought I was going to die....but NOW I feel like a new person.....Made it to the dance last night and had a really good time..I thought I wouldn't be doing any dances but I did...after a while or so we left and he took me to the Tim Horton's on the Woodstock Road (it's open all night)...oh this is all spoiling me....wow...I love it!  I think Donnie is a wonderful man...would be great if I don't lose him!!!!!!!!!!!

Things are looking good

I'm bone tired but I want to talk a little bit about the past few days; they were GOOD ones! First of all we DID go to the dance at the Legion (we being Donnie and I), and we danced the whole time....I loved it when we waltzed cause it gave us a chance to do some serious hugging....it's been SO long since I had a hug; it felt sooo good I hated to see it come to an end.  I love to be held; makes me feel like I matter even if it is only for a few minutes....anyway, Art and Ro came tot he dance too so along with Donnie I had someone else to talk to!  It was a really good night!  a special night, one I'll think of for a long time to come!
Saturday was "slow", not much happening, but then Sunday out of the blue I got a call from Donnie asking me if I'd like to go for a drive......you bet I would!!!  How long has it been since I've been out on a nice drive???  You won't believe this but he took me all the way to St Andrew's where we walked and talked along the edge of the sea.....we both love the sea, so that's something we have in common, along with liking to hear the older country music ....and more.....actually we're quite compatible..I could very easily fall for this man.....he's a true gentleman (at least he is to me)..I know he has skeletons in his closet, well, so do I..no one's perfect....Besides I'm not looking for someone to marry or even live together with....I'm getting what I want right now.....a trusted companion who can give me the little extras that the girls can't.....If he stops seeing me right now that will be okay too....that's how I survive now and keep my sanity, keep the illness at bay is to live for the moment....the here and now....yesterday's over, and tomorrow hasn't come, and I don't know what tomorrow will bring.....So, yes, I 'm immersing myself  in the here and now....living, laughing, and loving!!!!!  I don't want to borrow problems from tomorrow or down the road.  I'm alive RIGHT NOW and I treasure it.
Had Ro and Nancy in Saturday and we had so much fun (as always)..I cooked up a nice clam chowder, took a bowlful over to Julian....there's someone I really care for and wish we could go out someplace and just talk (he's my computer man; has been since we moved here and I like him.....he's awesome!  Too bad he's such a loner, though.  Anyway Saturday went really well as it always does.
Today was bright and sunny and...WARM.....so I rounded up Ro and we walked to the Dollar Store, bought a few things (no impulse shopping for me, thank God....I had everything listed and it was stuff I needed..my total came to a little above $5)  I bought a notebok for my journal, some hair pins and a bag of elastics......big wow!!!  I have to be very careful with my money cause there's no one else to help me with it.....I'm on my own here (which I LOVE) and need to account for every penny...I know...I don't care for CHEAP people but now I understand..my  budget is very limited therefore it has to be guarded!!!!!  However I wasn't too cheap to have a Tim's with Ro before coming home!!!   I'm NEVER too cheap for Tim's!!!!!!

PHONE EAR

WOW, my ear has gone numb.so many phone calls....and all lengthly ....first one was Brian Giggey from the center; he's good for an hour, then Rowena called....there' another hour..and I hardly  had time to put the phone down when Donnie called, and he's long winded too.....it all adds up and the poor ear pays the price!  I don't usually get so many LONG phone calls all at once; tonight was an exception.  I'm glad that Donnie is still interested in being my friend; I hope he will take me out places so I can see more of life outside this apartment!  I'm hoping that we can make it to the Legion Friday night; I'm in the mood to kick up my heels and have a good time!!!!!!  Have to go up for blood work tomorrow......gives me a trip on the bus, and after the blood work is done I love to go to the little deli and order some banana bread and hot chocolate.......a little something to look forward to!!!!!!!!!!!

Date with Donnie A Success

All right I'll cut to the chase...I had a wonderful time with Donnie, and he asked me out again for next week!  He's just your average country bred guy but I find him likeable.  It did me a world of good to get out of the apartment and get out for a drive and see different things.  Spent an hour at Tim's (of course) WHERE ELSE????  anyway we were going to go to the Legion but the place was packed and we knew there would be no tables available (so we;re going to go earlier next week) I found it really easy to talk to him and am so happy and encouraged that he thought enough of me to want to go out again!!!!  He was going to take me out tomorrow night but Saturdays are reserved for Nancy and Rowena, he was okay with that.  I'm positively elated that my evening went the way it did and I may have found the companion that I've been looking for!!!!!!!!!!

A DATE WITH DONNIE

Okay, I'm going to try to keep this short cus I'm awfully tired (good, I need my sleep)  After going a couple of weeks without keeping in touch, Donnie called tonight and asked me out for tomorrow night.....I was surprised cus I thought he just wanted to chat...but no, this time is a date.  We're definitely going to Tim Horton's and possibly to the Legion to do some dancing...should make for a wonderful evening....All I want from him is to be a companion for me, to go places with...to give me things that my female friends can't.  I'm glad he already knows a bit about my being BP, and I also mentioned that I can't drink any kind of alcohol due to it reacting with my meds.....well, it turns out he gave up drinking a year ago.  I hope he asks me more about BP tomorrow and then I can fill him in with a few more details.  I pefer to be open and up front...don't want a guy wasting time and money on a relationship that's going nowhere. I must admit I am a little on the nervous side....gosh I haven't dated anyone for over 30 years...I met Paul in 1977, so it's been that long.....all I can do is just be myself and see how things go from there,,,I'm looking forward to it too!!!!